It's not the pale moon...

2007-01-20T11:12:00.000+08:00

i moved.

http://june_y.livejournal.com/

2007-01-18T23:42:00.001+08:00

lindy 3.. killer!

the learning curve just got steeper..

tired~

2007-01-17T08:43:00.000+08:00

i am just almost ready to start school. heh~ now just hope i get the tute slots i want.

it sucks not having people around the house. and the dog is being naughty cause she wants attention all the time. cant possibly watch her 24/7! sending her away to the groomer's today so i dont have to bother about her just for one day. one afternoon to be exact.

=) and i get this week to experiment with my own cooking! hehe.. so far it has been successful. and my kitchen is still standing mind you. no pots burnt.

2007-01-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

joycelyn poh. sylvianne. dorea.

*tugs at your sleeve*

cannot blame me for something i have no control of what...

i still miss your class!

hehe..

2007-01-13T12:14:00.000+08:00

just how much fun can one have? how long does a sugar high last?

*crash, splash, splat, tumble, roll, plop*

maybe it's the weather.. making me feel all gloomy. if not for dowdow, there would be no noise in the house. no company.

am i actually afraid of being alone now?

and that decision to make. seems to minor.. but yet the consequences are quite serious if i go ahead with it.. 2 more hours to go

*plonks back into bed and thinks*

wish you were here..

2007-01-12T08:51:00.000+08:00

im feeling pissy.. tell me it's all in my head.

moving on to lindy 3 finally =) though last night i felt shit about how i danced.

whole week of being home alone..freedom? yeah! chores? bah!

2007-01-11T16:55:00.000+08:00

its the 4th day of school.. and im on MC!
this trend has to stop. now!

*jumps around and chants* i shall make it through this sem..i shall make it through this sem..

2007-01-10T13:07:00.000+08:00

3rd day of school.. im dreading it!!

finally put my comment box up..been lazy to do it after accidentally deleting it.

and its nice to see people again =) welcome back dawnie, corrie, and jamey! and sorry trs, hehe..i keep cancelling on you

joel: have u arranged what u have to arrange?? time is running out!

2007-01-09T10:22:00.000+08:00

had my first lecture yesterday. and i fell asleep. this semester is going to go SO well.

good monday night...so happening. hehe~ dont know if i can release details here. im already quite happy im still alive after having to pull my ears and stand in the corner. oo! but st james powerstation is a cool chillout place. swings, cool lounges, nice music, interesting conversation topics, and kilkenny.. cheers guys~ good start to a new semester!

but why do i still feel that my world is slowly crashing down?

2007-01-07T21:12:00.001+08:00

die dota die!

2007-01-06T09:49:00.000+08:00

had a funny dream last night..sometimes dunt know if dreams make u more tired. felt like i ran a marathon when i woke up.
dreamt that i was back in tk..not studying..but teaching. maybe im thinking too much about my career prospects. anyway..the kids were horrible. they were noisy, messy, and downright naughty and had the weirdest names like chang chen and xiao long bao. heh~ the feeling of being in front of the class was so different. there was one point where i had to run after them cause the boys were playing truant or something.

hmm.. funny random dream. but made me think.

im tired.!

school starts on monday.

hair's nice and smooth after the treatment yesterday. =) cant stop touching it. haha~ oh vanity.

2007-01-02T19:01:00.000+08:00

pictures from dinner and dance are up!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/june_502/sets/72157594453873946/

2007-01-02T03:35:00.000+08:00

new years day! this is what i call having fun :D havent really been out like this for ages! i still havent had enough dancing!

headed to secret garden @ middle road around 8pm. settled down, some announcements and thank yous, buffet, and then dance! had so much fun and good thing my flats didnt give me problems..well till much much later anyway. party lasted all the way till 12 midnight and then we headed to bellini room to continue dancing. the jazz band there was good! only managed to get one dance there tho cause we were there late..but that one dance with eric was awesome! wheee!

so much fun..but so tired =) happy... hehe...

2007-01-01T08:53:00.000+08:00

so envious after reading how dwin spent new year's eve. i'll make up for the loss by dancing harder tonight :D
spent new year's eve quietly..cleaning up my room a bit and playing mahjong on the computer. couldnt sleep! then the clock struck 12 and people upstairs starting cheering and all. then mom burst in, hugged me and said happy new year! and there was a hint somewhere in what she said to me about having to grow up..heh.. bah~ *jumps around*

urgh..and so frustrating that i couldnt sleep after that. all the way up to 4am. rather accurate cause that was when the last message came in. then i woke up at 830am.

*yawn* uh..happy new year!

2006-12-29T22:32:00.000+08:00

another year has passed.. =) final teenage year. whee! bet after this i'll be dreading the addition to my age.

anyway, 2007 seems to be a rather exciting one as far as i can see. heh either tragically or otherwise.

things to look forward to:
1) first day of the year - swing dinner and dance!
2) new semester! so looking forward to see how im going to survive taking 5 core modules..all 3000 level somemore.
3) 20th birthday =)
4) going on to lindy 3!
5) SEA JAM! basically a 3 day 2 night lindy camp. whee!
6) deciding where my life goes on from here.
7) you ?? =)

2006-12-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

rain rain rain..more rain..meh~ fits the mood anyway.

what will be will be..

right?

2006-12-25T17:18:00.000+08:00

a bit late in the day but..

merry christmas!

with love =)

2006-12-24T11:19:00.000+08:00

the phone is the best invention ever. so are phone cards. and cell phones. and anything related to the phone!

whee!

the internet is a close close second =) nothing beats personal touch.

2006-12-21T09:55:00.000+08:00

korkor's back =D

and it's so cold! raining too much...

2006-12-18T19:17:00.000+08:00

i lost a dress..
i was planning to wear that dress..
i like that dress..
i havent worn that dress before..
i looked everywhere for that dress..
i really really like that dress..
i bought that dress cheap too..

*SULK*

2006-12-17T16:34:00.000+08:00

im homeeeeee ~ im glad to be home. a hard week's worth of manual labor is draining and tiring but fun. it was a nice mix of people in the group and everyone was helpful and sporting. our hosts were so hospitable and friendly too! yummy food as well.. but now, i just need to rest =) hehe..and uh..catch up on some internet withdrawal..

im crowned ms. internet 2006. hahah~ thanks team. shall remember all of you for a long time. as advanced as technology may be and as convenient as it is, i think it can almost never replace the personal touch of receiving mail. the sweetness of reading something handwritten and receiving something touchable is many many times above the same thing found in an email.

thank you =)

2006-12-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

flying to chiang mai in about 7 hours.. will be back next sunday.. then shortly after that, korkor will come home and relatives will come visit! can't wait :D

2006-12-09T15:56:00.000+08:00

dowdow went swimming today!! soo fun!! there's this Petgamart thingy at Pasir Ris Farmway 1 and there's this place for dogs to go play!! hehe..a small pool and big space for them to run around. i threw her in and she swam like a pro! heh..mom's friends came along and they have a bigger dog ..same breed as dowdow.. but much heavier and larger.. throwing that one in was backbreaking..haha and there was a huge splash =P

2006-12-08T21:33:00.000+08:00

finally i can say..

EXAMS ARE OVER!

can go rot in my room now...

2006-12-08T00:07:00.000+08:00

a 'me' fact: I enjoy virtual romances

and i'm still saying: "JUST ONE MORE!!!....@#$@#$"

2006-12-06T23:46:00.000+08:00

thought i'd use the time to write..

im being a 陪读妈妈 (pei du ma ma) for tonight. sitting in my room, staring at the screen, and imagine youre next to me and looking at those maps. you turn to me out of the blue, wondering what im doing, making small talk, complaining about the work in front of you...

really hope you finish it soon..feel a twinge of sadness whenever i think about the stress and the fact youre so many miles away.

you'll be fine..i know you can do it =) *and that cheesy song keeps playing...* Oceans apart, day after day...

2006-12-06T19:39:00.000+08:00

just..one..more..to..go..!

i cant wait. good thing all my papers so far have been better than expected..judging by how much i really studied. just hope i can say the same for my results.. used to make fun of joel whenever he complained about the results being released near christmas..now i have to eat my own words as i wait for their release.. heh..

just one more!! stats again..will this never end?!

2006-12-06T13:03:00.000+08:00

blogspot is loading very slowly these days.. i wonder why..

2006-12-04T09:04:00.000+08:00

woke up to dowdow's whinings outside the door. let her in and she jumped on my bed immediately and dug herself between the covers. didnt think she was up to mischief cause it was early in the morning and she looked so adorable.
then mom came back from the airport and came straight to my room saying, "it looks like a toilet. those very dirty ones. like those in olden china! they might even be cleaner!"

oh boy..

spent half an hour cleaning up even before i could brush my teeth..sniff* no wait..dont sniff..might just throw up.

sigh* when will this dog learn?!?!

2006-12-01T12:06:00.000+08:00

mom and dowdow woke me up this morning by playing catching over my bed. not around, not near.. but over. i got stamped on, pushed, and ran over.

feel the love in this family.. hee~

anyway, im feeling dancy! Hermes House Band's version of Can't take my eyes off of you..best!

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived.
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you

Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you leaves me weak.
There are no words left to speak.
But if you feel like how I feel.
Please let me know that it's real.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I need you baby to warm a lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh pretty baby, don't bring me down I pray.
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you, stay.
And let me love you baby let me love you....

2006-11-29T19:46:00.000+08:00

one down, four more to go!

statistics.. DIE!!

2006-11-27T18:08:00.000+08:00

wee~ im home!

took lots of pictures too!
see them HERE

2006-11-25T01:42:00.000+08:00

what a long day..and i still have to finish reading chapters for today. its 1.35am..sigh* long night too. was fun tho~ went out in the morning to meet auntie cora and auntie siby with mom. walked around and i did some christmas shopping. nice! then went to eat my favorite steamed egg..yumyum..and then went to central to shop for shoes cause its 50% off with my aunt's nine west VIP card! muahahha.yes of course i bought shoes..mom bought a hand bag..then i went around to get another christmas present..hee~ spent some time coaxing my mom to lend me HK dollars for this one.
at 8pm, all of us (with my korkor too!! he looks so cute in a suit) made our way to the expo to watch beegees in concert. actually its just one of them but it is still good! all the aunties and uncles around us were standing up and dancing. so cool~ then had a damn late steamboat dinner. am feeling a tad sick right now..
but overall..nice nice day =) just need to get rid of that quesiness.. going to korkor's apartment tmr! wee~ pictures to come when i go home

study time..

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain.
And the moment that you wander far from me,
I wanna feel you in my arms again.

And you come to me on a summer breeze,
keep me warm in your love, then you softly leave.
And it's me you need to show
how deep is your love.

Deep is your love,
how deep is your love,
I really need to learn,
'cause we're living in a world of fools
breaking us down,when they all should let us be.
We belong to you and me.

I believe in you.
You know the door to my very soul.
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour.
You're my saviour when I fall.

And you may not thinkI care for you.
When you know down inside that I really do.
And it's me you need to show
how deep is your love.

Deep is your love,
how deep is your love,
I really need to learn,
'cause we're living in a world of fools
breaking us down,when they all should let us be.
We belong to you and me....

2006-11-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

i missed lindy tonight. why?

CAUSE IM IN HONG KONG!

muhaha..i'll make up for the class by dancing with my brother here. and SHOPPING! muhaha..barely spent 12 hours here and mom and i already spent..uh..some money buying clothes. it sucks that the shoe sizes here are small and i have big feet. hmph~ i loveeee the shoes here. and i have internet connection!! WEEE!!

i need to study...i need to study...

i miss dowdow too

2006-11-22T00:15:00.000+08:00

yawn* 2nd day of attempted studying. at least i did something.

2006-11-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

reading week..finally the exams are here..when school first started, this seemed like forever~ but now, DIE!
I really need to start studying..like i always say but never get it done. hope that i follow the schedule i set for myself for this whole week.

then i'll be off to build a house! so exciting =) please continue to pray and support the team! (PSss: financially too..heh)

not much happening in my life currently. the most "interesting" event i shall not elaborate on here. i can safely say that i am re-finding (if there's such a word..) a new side of me. its both thrilling and scary at the same time. *slaps self* maybe im getting adventurous again..

all the best for all exam takers.. and welcome home to the aussie uni-goers

2006-11-19T12:35:00.000+08:00

after a VERY mind boggling bible study at paul's place.. thanks to daryl..i went to harry's again for swing! live jazz is definitely good.. but somehow i prefered the one in perth when i went with the guys..universal i think??

still the dancing is good =)

oh, and if you ever call me and i start laughing non-stop over the phone..haha~ just either wait for me to stop or say you'll call back in 5 minutes..

sheesh~ image ruined last night.. ive turned into a giggly..rahrah! only she does this..not me..!

Some day, when I'm awfully low
When the world is cold
I will feel a glow just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight

You're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft
There is nothing for me but to love you
And the way you look tonight

With each word your tenderness grows
Tearing my fears apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose
It touches my foolish heart

Lovely, never ever change
Keep that breathless charm
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love you
Just the way you look tonight

With each word your tenderness grows
Tearing my fears apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose
It touches my foolish heart

Lovely, don't you ever change
Keep that breathless charm
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love you
Just the way you look tonight
Hmmm... tonight

2006-11-16T10:09:00.000+08:00

So many nights I sit by my window
Waiting for someone to sing me his song
So many dreams I kept deep inside me
Alone in the dark, but now you've come along

2006-11-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

poor puppy..post op..

2006-11-13T10:38:00.000+08:00

had yet ANOTHER dream this morning..wah lao..i should sleep in mom's room more often..~ this was a nice dream i think. weird as well but nice =) i guess i miss the feeling of being with someone. must have woken up right in the middle of REM sleep..remembered most of it..

i dreamt that i was in charge of some restaurant. haha~ it had cool couches and nice dim lighting. like a night club feel..but then it was a restaurant..so funny. i had to shuffle from kitchen to reception to the tables..then 2 of the guys from uni (at least i think they are..seen them around before) appeared at the tables and i went over the take their order. then scene jumped and one of the guys fell sick (not from the food!) and his friend (guy A) and i took him to the office..(?!?!) wasnt a restaurant anymore..haha..was a library of some sort. then i dont know what happened, but guy A suddenly held my hand and we walked to look for guy B together. it was weird. i dont even know him! then guy B disappeared and guy A and i went back to my car (which was my aussie car) with 5 thick textbooks..then i had to rush back for class (confusing right?!..its amazing i still remember) and..then i woke up..

heh.. dont know what happened there. but it was funny. i guess i do like having a guy in my life afterall =) shall spare you some of the mushy details !

2006-11-11T15:26:00.000+08:00

i must be sleeping too much these days..the frequency of dreams has definitely increased! another dream today during a nap..dreamt of dwin this time round. i dunt know where we were but we were walking and then he was pushed by some force and he fell and went head first into this thing..i dont remember what the thing was but it was hard and dwin fell in slow motion, hit the thing, and rolled onto the ground groaning in agony..hahahah~ i dont know whether to laugh or to feel sorry for him..i managed to stop laughing (yes in my dream! but i laughed after i woke up anyway..heh) and went down on my knees to assess the injury..there was no blood, just lots of bruising and pain (medically possible??). he was complaining about the fall and i just used my finger to poke and massage the bruise like i normally would when i see one on my friends. hehe~

and you screamed dwin. hahahahh~

then dowdow licked me on the face and i woke up. yes i fell asleep on the floor. yawn* back to work

2006-11-10T08:43:00.000+08:00

i had a dream in a dream. it was so cool~ though i remembered more of the dream i dreamt of when i first woke up in my dream. it was sam's wedding..though i dont know why i know it was sam's wedding when km wasnt in my dream. martin, daryl, joel, sam, myself, and also weirdly my cousin wendy was at the same table. there was a LOT of food served and the guys were just pigging out. then i "woke up" and told sam that i dreamt about his wedding and he laughed the way he would laugh..then he told daryl who gave his daryl expressions, who told joel to gave a thumbs up like he would, and then he told martin who did the hard gay thing (hahahah~), who told paul who gave his pauly smile. wendy didnt do much in my dream. just sat there and ate. haha..then i really woke up started laughing.. especially at martin..hehehehehe
well, dreams dont have to mean anything right?~!

and yeah~ i passed lindy 1 yesterday =)

now i actually need to do some work which is due tomorrow.. die..

2006-11-07T13:55:00.000+08:00

A hong kong witness account of a car accident:

One car come
One car go
Two cars kiss-see
Bom bom bom

2006-11-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

paid my fees for lindy 2 lor.. =)

dowdow's not feeling well tonight..threw up her dinner. sigh* poor baby..shall keep her under observation

2006-11-01T09:33:00.000+08:00

was bored.. so thought id wake myself up with some fascinating youtube videos =) dancing!

2006-10-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

happy halloween!

i wonder what is on your mind
whether you are sleeping well at night
i pray that God will bless you
and someday let you hold me tight

2006-10-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

dowdow dropped her first tooth today! so cool to see her growing up..hehe..

had dinner with part of the lindy gang yesterday and the whole bunch of them happen to be from new creation. quite cool..they are all working though..im the youngest of the lot again. after dinner and dessert, we headed to harry's @ boat quay for live jazz night and of course, lindy hopping! it was so fun. though the place was small, people were just dancing and i danced with hongwee a few times. didnt know what i was doing..but it was definitely fun! haha you know those moves when the girl jumps up into the air?? i actually did that! no idea how he managed to prompt me to jump but i just did. haha! woah! cant wait for the next class already =)

had dinner with yimin, km, dotz, jerm, joel and roland just now @ big fish. yummy food and great company..hehe..and cool video too

2006-10-20T10:25:00.000+08:00

i officially am in lovveee with lindy hop. its getting damn addictive and look forward to every thursday!! =)

korkor come back and dance with me! dwinnie too!

2006-10-12T08:23:00.000+08:00

All that hype about north korea... i wonder how chol jun is...

school..bah! i messed up a report and a test. apparently B- is not good. sigh* i got bumped down from a B+ cause of admin purposes. someone explain this strange logic to me. at least i get a day of rest. now back to work. 3 more reports and a presentation to go. yippee. i need help just to sit down and study.

wish i were dowdow.. i can be cute, lovable, playful, and ...do nothing! sit and sleep in the house all day. run around when i feel like it. play with toys. i'll be guai and pee and poo at the right place so i wont get scoldings and beatings but have many treats to eat instead. then no need to know about which guy said what and which side of the brain is the creative one.

2006-09-22T09:59:00.000+08:00

wee! had my first lindy class yesterday. so fun!! haha..that's my first response to anyone who asked me about it. felt a little dumb when i first started though..and damn embarrassed when i missed steps. but things started to get fun when the partner thing comes in. interesting experience to dance with different guys and both of us making a fool out of ourselves..haha..one of the leads had to spin me around to make me less relaxed before continuing :S

last day of school before mid-sem break starts.. means one whole week of catching up with the past 5 weeks of school!! ahhhh~ im so dead..

2006-09-20T17:13:00.000+08:00

one thing that got me real pissed today: rude drivers. this is one thing i cannot stand. and i especially dislike people with so-called sports cars (even those who are not but pretend that they are just by sticking stickers all over their car) and zipping in and out of traffic like nobody's business and being a danger to everyone around them. they tailgate, dont signal, and cut you off. AHHH~

this i can still tolerate.

what really really gets to me..like it did today..is when drivers DO NOT BLOODY GET IN LINE when traffic is slow and the rest of the world is waiting to go into an exit. these stupid and rude drivers will go really fast in front and cut in front and expect people to let them in. what logic is that?! first, you piss the hell out of the twenty cars patiently waiting behind...second, you cause a congestion in the other lane going straight cause you selfishly think you own the road...and third, you make yourself look like a damn jerk. if you do not know the way very well and realise that you are in the wrong lane, if its too late to change lane..then just make a detour.. if you are polite enough, im sure there are very understanding drivers who will allow you to cut in front of them and after they do that, PLEASE say thank you by waving your hand or something.

and you know those roads where the lane is quite wide cause its a bend going into a highway? (e.g. CTE going into PIE) i do not know which part of "do not travel on the shoulder" some drivers do not seem to understand and just go happily onto the shoulder and cut everyone else cause they do not bother waiting in line again. its very dangerous and especially when other cars do not expect another idiot to come right beside them when they are turning! if you like travelling on the shoulder so much, i hope your car breaks down and you can stay on the shoulder for as long as you want!

arghhhhhhhh~ bloody rude drivers.

thank you for all who comply with the traffic rules, whether it is written or unwritten. it is common courtesy!

there you go.. =) got it off my chest.. haha

dowdow went for her first walk today!! weee~ hopefully she'll get used to the leash more and we can walk longer.. it'll be fun!

2006-09-20T09:38:00.000+08:00

i am so lazy. i am so behind in my readings. bleah~ and lo and behold, it's mid sem break next week! haha..

lindy classes start tomorrow. quite excited about it. but also damn afraid that i will embarrass myself. haha~ though dwin gave us classes before, that was still years ago and wont be much help..it did perk my interest though. that's why years later, here i am!

i hate wednesdays.. such a long day.. still trying to get used to the fact that classes end at 6pm..seems such a normal thing here. uni was almost empty when i finished classes at 4pm in UWA..

yawn*

2006-09-07T17:36:00.000+08:00

i was harassed by an internet pervert.

these people have absolutely nothing better to do.

*BLOCK!*

anyway..school is coming along fine. i am not getting lost anymore and i have met some cool people. to my huge surprise, i am enjoying my statistics class more than my other classes just cause the lecturer makes it so fun. im never a big fan of sociology modules but just cause i need to fill up electives.. bleah~ term papers and stuff are coming up so i should be doing my readings and starting my research.

im such a lazy undergrad. i would be lazier if i had to take the bus to school. thank God for the car. phew*

dowdow is getting bigger.. we're trying not to feed her too much but you know..puppies just look so adorable and cute when they sit by your side begging for food. we're starting to let her wander out into the garden. love chasing her around the place. she started puppy kindergarten at upp. east coast last sunday. it'll go on for another 3 weeks. gosh its SO MUCH FUN! there are other puppies there and they are adorable. the teacher is very good too and he's very patient. dowdow has a few new friends now: chowchow, golden retriever, labrador retriever, a mixed breed, a mini yorkshire terrier, and a rottweiler. cant wait for sundays now!

2006-08-27T09:40:00.000+08:00

going into the third week of school. not too bad yet i think..im getting used to the driving already. going to get the iPod in the car set up so i get decent music when im in the car.

i still hate admin cause they are so inefficient and its not fun running around getting stuff endorsed. especially stupid tutorial changes. i refuse to have a 5 day week!

dowdow's giving less trouble.. but still cries in the morning to wake us all up at 7am. haha im beginning to sleep through the crying.

2006-08-18T09:23:00.000+08:00

School has started.. seriously..there are too many flights of stairs in NUS! never remember which ones i went up or down on and either i cant find my lecture room or i cant find my way back to the carpark. grr.. and its VERY hot walking around like that..

and i haves a lecturer whose cants speaks engrish for NUTS! and another who ignores the rest of the class and just speaks to the few in front of her and the module is very boring.

dropdropdropdropdropdropdrop!

other than that..uni is coming along well and i am trying hard to settle down quickly. administration still sucks.

and i cannot drink beer to save my life.

the joy in my life

2006-08-13T20:56:00.000+08:00

school starting tomorrow officially..but i have no lectures on monday and tuesday. hope i get tutes on other days of the week so i can have a 3-day week. hehe~ travelling back and forth will be a pain..cant wake up 15 minutes before class starts anymore..

part of me misses perth..but i guess being out of people's hair is a good thing..no good being a nuisance

move on with life now.

2006-08-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

watched the lake house with my mom today.. what a great movie! simple plot, simple lines, simple make up, simple clothes, simple place, simply LOVE! movies like these just separate us from reality and drown ourselves in this whole lovey dovey fantasy..where life seems to perfect and everything falls into place at the end..having perfect soundtracks to suit the mood...a friend told me that every thing that happens in life should have a soundtrack..it'll make the mood so much more intense!

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
And most of all
When snowflakes fall
I wish you love

2006-08-06T20:42:00.000+08:00

ive become a pee-wiping, shit-picking slave..

but somehow i enjoy it..

yes i smell too =)

2006-08-06T00:56:00.000+08:00

new member of the household! no i didnt get pregnant and hide my tummy for 9 months.. =) meet: dowdow (means beans in cantonese)
she's born on may, 3 2006. breed: japanese spitz. bought her today (august 5, 2006) at ericsson pet farm in pasir ris. it was really love at first sight! more pics HERE

2006-08-04T10:39:00.000+08:00

I am officially enrolled in NUS for AY2006/2007.

The dramamama i had to get through just to state that sentence finally. emotional torture and physical strain!

I'm glad its done. Another year of my life somehow planned out. What's on after that? I do not know!! Let the fun begin =) Please let me blog something more fun than just saying how messed up my life is and how frustrated i am bout it.

wendy's here! haha~ lots of karaoke, shopping, and mahjong!

and chen dan will be coming to singapore in a week with matt =) cant wait to see them again.. !!

i need settle back into my room again instead of just treating it as a holiday resort. it's in no shape to qualify for a studying environment. mm..where to keep my books, die..

2006-07-31T10:28:00.000+08:00

final day in perth..

having real mixed feelings..im excited to go home and start something new, but sad to leave the life here and miss certain people i see everyday, and unsure about what the future holds...looking back at what i have done this past year: the few crazy nights, the assignments, the exams, kebabs, coffee, the meetings, training, getting to know new people, starting a new job, getting my first car, moving luggage and furniture around, standing in the cold, swatting flies, ups and downs with friends, and the not-so-happy times in my room...i have learnt a lot from being here by myself. the independence and the freedom to make my own decisions and of course, bearing the consequences of bad ones made. these memories i will treasure but i just have to keep looking forward now...

"nothing wastes more energy than worrying"

this past week was hectic but also the most fun. =) arrived on sunday morning with stephanie and tun and after a short 2 hour nap, i met up with edwin and we spent the afternoon in the city walking around, exploring, eating hotdog, and listening to buskers along hay street. that little boy singing pop hits was my favorite! you should have seen the huge group of people (mostly females) surrounding the boy and throwing in coins.

the next few days was just loaded with administrative paperwork and lineups. was so frustrated at one point but thank God everything managed to settle in the end. jho, chris, steph and tun are angels for helping me with my packing.

final res club meeting on thursday. was quite depressing cause of some issues going on in the club. really hope they will sort it out soon. and of course find someone to replace me =( sniff* the three muskateers were crashing a philo lecture while i was having the meeting. haha~ it was interesting enough to consider crashing it again. dinner @ northbridge. went to the ONLY hk restaurant i know of =P i am a very very bad guide. good thing the guys had some idea what they wanted to do and where to go. they took me around in the end. how embarrassing.

went to annalakshmi for dinner 2 nights in a row. first night with my dear human movement buddies and second night with the pilots. haha the contrast in convo topics. not word-for-word examples:

first night-
"eh how did you find 2240? my class very competitive during swimming."
"ok la, 2213 worse!"
"seniors say all ANHB units are crazy"
"die..."
second night-
"damn the weather cleared up in the afternoon. could have flown"
"im flying tomorrow"
"...*some alien language about the weather*..."
"eh eat more!"

the joy of diversity and lemon meringue pies =)

stephanie, tun and i went to freo for lunch on saturday. little creatures! food was GREAT and so was the place. a little on the expensive side though. the waitress didnt let us order 2 pizzas cause she said we ordered a lot already. it was only one thin crust pizza, chilli mussels, and calamari. in the end, we did order the second pizza PLUS waffles with strawberry and cream for dessert. yum~ who said asians cant eat much..haha.. had to walk off the food at freo market after lunch and bought some really cool stuff! like floonie stress balls and filling bottles with colored sand and dressing it up. so fun! pictures to come. =)

sunday! went to swan valley. trying to find our way there was interesting enough to start with..haha..i was the one with the map. now, who says i dont have good direction sense =P we had lunch at a german brewery called duckstein. the bratwurst, pork cutlet, saurkraut, potato salad etc. was very yummy! edwin thought the beer he ordered tasted like tiger..nothing special~ dessert was served at the nearby chocolate factory. hehe free chocolate tasting! thank God the weather was fine and not too cold. the walk along the wineries and farms was refreshing and so was playing with an exploding fruit/seed/dunno what it is on a tree. a little experience of the suburban farm life.
after more fumbling of the street directory and u-turns, we found our way back to the city for an italian dinner and random karaoke session in the middle of the road. fun no doubt =)

2 more hours before heading off to the airport. yawn*

bye perth. hello singapore.

2006-07-22T17:53:00.000+08:00

byebye world..for now

2006-07-20T17:10:00.000+08:00

got back from kl yesterday. was a great trip. nice to catch up with auntie zita and william and wendy again. did lotsa shopping and karaoke! food was good too. esp the chicken rice. dad would have loved it.

think theyre coming to singapore around august. would be great to have them around.

i miss my other cousins too..esp jessica..will be seeing you soon!

2006-07-16T14:30:00.000+08:00

going to KL till wednesday..

been a holiday full of ups and downs. mostly downs i must say.. or a flat line.. and God has proved once again that He is unpredictable and uncontrollable. and i have no idea what He wants to do with me. im at my wits end. not the happiest person on earth right now but i will still give thanks to Him for what i still have.

2006-06-29T22:17:00.000+08:00

been about 2 weeks since i got back from perth. been relaxing and tiring at the same time.. glad to see my family and friends again.. it really is different knowing that im home and its time to set things straight. confrontations are ugly. be it medically, relationships, or spiritually. but i know i have to set the wrongs from the rights and not damage myself further. sometimes i feel that everything has come crashing down on me. disappointments and unhappiness from friendships, physical and mental health, and feeling so spiritually drained. everything.

but i am still blessed with family who will stand by me regardless. some friends who reassure me and give me strength and hope. and i know that God is still faithful even when i am faithless.

and i thank you for making me smile and laugh..havent done that sincerely for a very very long time =)

2006-06-18T19:40:00.000+08:00

like it or not...

i am home =)

2006-06-14T11:08:00.000+08:00

Today's quiet time goes on as i type this..reflecting on His word and thinking how i can apply it to my life..i felt prompted to share my thoughts publically as i know a lot of people out there share the same pain and loss that i am feeling right now..the amount of disappointment and heartbreak we feel seem to be endless and it always comes, one after another.

The story is about living on the base of Mount Etna, Europe's most active volcano..the only path up the volcano has been destroyed and blackened many times by the lava but it is ALWAYS rebuilt. Homes are destroyed everytime but they are ALWAYS rebuilt.

Our lives represent the same thing..the only path to heaven is always blocked by obstacles and things which want to destroy is completely, turning us away from God and take the "easy" way out. Whenever things go crumbling down around us, what is our response? cry, complain, self-pity, anger, resignation, and shake our fists at God and ask why?

How many times do we rely on God's strength and find comfort in Him and say that I will still praise You. I will still bless Your name. What will You have me to do and learn from this?

I shall quote "God allows trials in our lives not for his own enjoyment or to spite us, but to draw us away from our pride, selfishnessm and other sins. He uses them to bring us closer to himself and to teach us as we endure difficulties. He proves he's the only Person to run to - the only One who can be depended on - the God who wont let us down. He can fix any broken-down wall or cracked foundation. God can rebuild a broken heart and heal a wounded soul. And he will do it over and over as we draw close to him" - Our Journey

Sometimes this journey seems endless..and we do get tired..but where would we learn patience if we aren't put into a situation where we would be impatient? where do we learn to love if we aren't faced with something unlovable? where would we find strength if everyday we are strong and all goes well for us? How would we know what is heartbreak if we dont go through it ourselves? I always think that my parents do not understand what im going through..but they have been young before..the same hormones, the same problems..God definitely knows what we are going through because Jesus Christ has been through it ALL..and even worse I can say..He went through it for US..

God allows us through these trials to refine us..I know some of us are still hurting deep inside no matter how much devotionals we read and how much we pray..or even have given up on the faith and turned away cause its just too much to bear. But take comfort that God will not put you through trials that you cannot bear..He will not leave or forsake you even if you forsake Him.

I have been guilty of it so many times.. turning away..going into self-pity mode..and just not sincere in my prayers and QTs. But God has always encouraged me through the smallest things and bring me back to Him..reminding me that He will never leave me. And I do need help..i cant go through this myself.. and that's why God put us in communities and fellowships..if i have fallen and no one knows how to pick me up, i will most probably stay down. i thank You Lord for the friends who have been encouraging and real to me.. and I pray for those out there who are down and need a way out, to pray for a friend, to pray for God Himself to pick you up =)

Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation
Habakkuk 3:17-18

2006-06-12T10:20:00.000+08:00

one week more..4 more exams to go..3 days of work..AHHH~

i hate exams..especially when im not prepared for it!

2006-06-09T09:39:00.000+08:00

is it possible to find a silver lining now? is there something i actually look forward to? is it possible to fall in love with someone you havent even met? is it possible to fall in love... with words?...

2006-06-06T12:59:00.000+08:00

exams in 2 days.. gosh what am i doing?! studying has become such a hard thing to do..struggling to do well and struggling to sit still and remember parts of the body and how the brain works. ironic thing about studying memory is that i cant remember how memory works. ive got to start considering my second year options as well. in the midst of all this. so many different factors pulling me in different ways. feel like im going to be pulled apart. where is the gentle tugging that belongs to God and Him alone? I dont know which one it is. I dont know which direction I should turn to.

Maybe I could run
Maybe I could follow
It's time to walk the path
Where many seem to fall
Hold me in your arms
Just like any father would
How long do we have to wait?
How long, we're going all the way

2006-06-03T18:33:00.000+08:00

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Babe I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two “I’m fine baby, how are you?”
I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
I got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
And I gotta go home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come and gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
I said let me go home

And I’m surrounded by a million people I
Still feel alone Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be alright
And I’ll be there tonight
I’m coming back home

-Michael Bublé

2006-06-02T14:24:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed to just name 20 people off the top of my head and do some quiz or other on them..Joel did X-Men which was quite cool! I shall do it on the people I like to spend time with and I miss!
1) Pree
2) Timmy
3) Ian Tan
4) Buddy
5) Joel Lim
6) Esther Ng
7) Janice Chiang
8) Chermaine
9) Dawnie
10) Jon Cho
11) Martin
12) Prissie
13) Daryl Liu
14) Paul Lim
15) Sarah Lim
16) Deborah Foo
17) Samuel Ng
18) Sharon Chan
19) Felix Fung
20) Andy Chiang

1. How did you meet number 14?
When I was at his house rehearsing for “Girls for all season” for primary 6 graduation musical with his sister.

2. What would you do if you had never met Number 1?
Life now would not be the same and as interesting!

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
HAHAHAHAHAHA.. cannot la.. 20’s attached..9 has her own crush :P

4. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
Uh...that’ll be incest..

5. Describe no.3.
Always want to try to act tough!

6. Do you think No.8 is attractive?
YES! I LOVE CHERMAINE..

7. Tell me something about No.7.
Sings and plays piano very well.. ! One of my closest friends

8. Do you know anything about no.12's family?
Uh..dad runs a company…?

9. What is no.8's favorite?
ME..!

10.What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you? Laugh and slap him on the back..then I’ll wake up from my nightmare and start laughing again

11. What language does 15 speak?
Janling language

12. Who is 9 going out with?
ME!..haha

13. How old is 16 now?
19!

14. When was the last time u talked to 13?
Uh..last week?

15. Who's 2's favorite singer?
Duno..himself?? heheh

16. Would you date number 4?
Nope! IT’s all lesbianism

17. Would you date 7?
YES! Haha..its also called lesbianism

18. Is 15 single?
Haha I think so!

19. What's 10's last name?
CHO!

20. Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 19?
Why so many questions like this? And no! too many childhood visions of him getting beaten up and I getting beaten up by parents.

21. What schools does 3 go to?
NUS

22. Where does 6 live?
Simpang, & currently Vietnam

23. What's your favorite thing about number 5?
That he sent me this thing to do.. hahah..

2006-05-31T08:37:00.000+08:00

relationships between people can be so fragile. one day you are tight..the next day, you see things flying around and two people walking in opposite directions. one day you are in the same country, the next day you are on opposite ends of the world..one day you talk like youve never opened your mouth before, but the next day you treat each other like strangers..

we are so inconsistent and fickle.. our love goes with our emotions, so erratic and always changing. from friendships, to romantic relationships, to family ties..will we ever be able to love like God commanded us to love?

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love,
I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
For we know in part and we prophesy in part,
but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13: 1-13

2006-05-27T10:47:00.000+08:00

Thank God for you ...

2006-05-24T02:38:00.000+08:00

it's definitely no fun when your circadian rhythm is messed up...

2006-05-23T11:24:00.000+08:00

When I least deserve Your Love
That's when I need You most
When I seem to push away
That's when I need You close
When my flesh would hide my heart
From the only truth it knows
That's when I need you most

2006-05-21T09:34:00.000+08:00

its great to be home

but...

i wonder if you care.. where are you when i need you?

2006-05-14T14:13:00.000+08:00

HAppy Mommy's Day =)

Love you~

2006-05-11T11:27:00.000+08:00

30 days to exams.. God knows how many more days till going home..

mom sorta lectured me last night..i wasnt being all too optimistic about staying here and dread the one more month i have left.. she reminded me that i was the one who wanted to come here..i was the one who convinced her and dad to send me here.. i was the one who made the choice so what am i whining about.

which makes me feel a whole lot worse about feeling the way i am now. actually makes me feel guilty about thinking about coming back.

i should camp out on stirling highway and hope some idiot comes along and end all this now.

2006-05-02T22:21:00.000+08:00

Ever feel like you can call no one when you scroll through your phonebook?

Ever feel like there's no one to talk to when you have a list full of contacts on your msn?

Ever feel that no one really thinks of you when you open your full mailbox but 99% of it is junk mail and that 1% is from those password reminder things that you requested when you forgot your password?

Ever feel that when you walk into a room, no one really gives a rats' ass about you?

Ever walk into a room and feel that you dont give a rats' ass about other people?

Ever feel that God is so far away even though you know that He is near?

Ever feel like just crawling into bed and not wake up?

Ever feel like staying in your room and not come out?

Ever wondered why you dont laugh as much anymore?

Ever feel that people are just paying lip service?

Ever feel like that for a long time?

Ever feel so dumb that you feel like the world's going to end for a long time..till you feel that youre weak and cannot accomplish anything?

下意識驅使我去
每日自作自受
白與黑的世界
兩極爭到最後
創造了也破壞了
最終失去自由
懲罰已受夠落泊的四周
自有箇中的
理由

2006-04-29T09:47:00.000+08:00

i know ive asked a few people about this..but as the opening of the da Vinci code the movie comes out, should we as Christians, even watch it? There was a talk from campus crusade about this whole thing but i missed it..anyone managed to catch it or get hands on one of the publications about it?

2006-04-27T13:57:00.000+08:00

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-1984279250614708075

video of my group's skit during the camp. i didnt manage to narrate cause i was ill and in bed..but they did a pretty good job and it was hilarious.. fyi, joe, the main character, is joan/jane/jocelyn chen's cousin.

2006-04-25T11:18:00.000+08:00

rain..nice and cooling and cleans up the air too.
great weather for a day to do my essay. that means i have to stay in all day until i finish it!
then go to work =)

simplicity is bliss~

happy anzac day aussie

2006-04-23T14:47:00.000+08:00

fever for 3rd day in a row..

i want my mommyyyyyyyy!!

2006-04-22T17:41:00.000+08:00

back from church camp. gosh this is seriously one of the weirdest camps ive been to. the speakers and all were good..content excellent..but i really couldnt respond. it was all head knowledge. i prayed and prayed for God to help me respond and connect on the heart level and not just the mind..it was so hard..

and half of the camp fell sick after the 2nd day. i thought i was fine but i fell sick shortly after with a horrible backache, fever, and nausea. tried sleeping but i was aching all over so much that i just cant sleep..cant get up either..some of the kids had to go home cause they were so sick, throwing up and having stomach upsets..even our guest speaker and the pastor..morale was quite low no doubt..

finally got back to college..going to have a good rest tonight..still have to do my laundry!! :S fever's almost gone but not the queasiness..no appetite either..

sniff* times like these when i wish i were home with parents fussing over me..hehe..i miss u both!!

this month will pastby really fast with exams and assignments being due.. will be praying for you guys back hme having exams too! =) miss u too~

2006-04-17T11:36:00.000+08:00

yawn* holidays..means i can wake up anytime i want. pretty easy nowadays since i dont sleep very well. maybe its the stuffiness in the room.

had REALLY good vietnamese food last night with alicia. drove down to northbridge on a cold night for some nice hot soupy PHO BO! hahaha..amazing~ nice and hot ho fan with beef slices and beef balls. yum...too bad i'll most probably be missing the vietnam trip with the guys =( darn exams..

i need to study before leaving for church camp on wednesday...not very very excited about going cause of the amount of studying i should get done..but i trust that God will work in me over the 4 days..i desperately need Him..

not much time left after that before exams. eek~ working tonight and tomorrow night too! finally get some money.. not giving up anymore shifts for anyone! Living out here alone makes me realise how much money it takes to support just me..bills here bills there..esp with the car now..servicing, insurance, transfer fees, petrol..then there are medical bills from the physio (which i will stop going cause its just too expensive to keep up)..phone bills, college fees, tuition fees..and of course the occasional grocery shopping, and meals and coffee.

ahhhhhhhhhh~ yes..im ready to go home (there's air ticket too!!)..

2006-04-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

On a hill far away, stood an old rugged cross,
The emblem of suff'ring and shame,
And I love that old Cross where the dearest and best,
For a world of lost sinners was slain.

And I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down,
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.

To the old rugged Cross, I will ever be true,
Its shame and reproach gladly bear,
Then He'll call me some day to my home far away,
Where his glory forever I'll share.

And I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down,
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown...

2006-04-14T12:00:00.001+08:00

thank God the mid sem break is here. and nothing beats having to start the holiday with the day to remind us that Christ died on the cross to take away the whole world's sin..and He is so much more than just a carpenter..

was in anthropology tutorial yesterday and some girl was saying that friday and sunday does not have three days between them and that the people who wrote it down cannot count. Made me wonder why do people focus on minute details like that when the bigger focus, the bigger picture is the one thing that matters? Jesus died on the cross for us, was ressurected, and now we have eternal salvation when we believe in Him and a personal relationship with God. isnt that so much more fascinating?

and gosh..*rolls eyes* you guys should have seen the big party in the common room last night cause the break is here. what fun these people have.

uni wise, ive sorta sorted out some bits and pieces..still need to think through some things before i actually go ahead and submit the paper work. and im still praying for another door to open if He allows me to walk through it. Today is a reminder, and it pales so far in comparison to what Jesus faced that day when He prayed..I ask for this one thing, but in the end if I cant have it, I want to be like how He prayed in Gethsemane,

"Not my will, but yours, be done" (Luke 22:42).

To become like Him in His death, surrendering to our Father's will fully.

"I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead."

Philippians 3:10

Have a blessed Good Friday everyone~

2006-04-11T20:23:00.000+08:00

nice to take a break from college.

some shots from watching tv in my room, thai songkhran festival, and girls' night out in the city! picture of my car toooo =)
HERE

2006-04-09T16:45:00.000+08:00

what do you want me to do?
im tired.

help me through this.

please.

2006-04-05T16:30:00.000+08:00

this is absolutely ridiculous~ a university event: PROSH. what comes out of it? drinking and more drinking. its supposed to be a charity fundraiser selling newspapers in different parts of the city. a normal group of people will go about doing it normally and get money and come back. but no..guess what "we" do here

drinking starts at 3am in the morning. partying. by the time breakfast starts at 6am, most of the people are totally drunk. how to sell paper like that? isnt the focus of the event lost already? worse..the committee people have to wake up early to supervise the behavior of big grown up people and clean up after them. not that we get to sleep much anyway cause of the noise these people are making. banging on random doors, climbing onto the second floor of wings, playing with the fire extinguishers, and throwing coco pops in the dining hall. seriously..i tried to see the funny side of it but i cant bring myself to even pretend to laugh at how stupid it is.

what im glad is that the girls had some fun. came back early no doubt but they had fun dressing up for the event and having their own kind of PROSH. pictures show how sleepy i was not being able to sleep the entire night..and the hilarious costumes..haha~ PROSH 2006

2006-04-02T15:45:00.000+08:00

the blessings God can pour on you through other people can overflow and be so overwhelming. Thank you Lord for bringing these people into my life. words cannot explain how grateful i am. all i could see were dark clouds all around me..but there are countless of umbrellas wanting to shelter me and many doors to homes open for me to go in. and all i had to do was to open my heart and accept these invitations.

are you willing to go that extra mile and be that blessing yourself? don't stay in your comfort zone, go out there and bless others! be it a smile, a helping hand, sitting down for a chat..just letting the other person know you care about them and there is something more behind the act..

2006-04-01T08:39:00.000+08:00

weather has been cooler these days. much easier to sleep but harder to wake up! uni work is piling up but looking at the calendar, there really is about 2 months more to the semester and then its exams and im coming home! wow~ seriously..its already week 6! and most of my assignments are coming up..should work harder now and not just slack around most of the time. cant wait to get this over and done with and come home! and pray that my exam timetable will finish early too!

parents are in hk at the moment. brother is doing fine..still looking for a job. i still havent taken a picture of my car i know..hehe..im taking it in for servicing on monday. so i'll do it after! i hope..

miss you guys loads~

2006-03-26T01:00:00.000+08:00

happy 21st birthday joseph!
auntie aimee and uncle james organised a fantastic surprise party for him. cheesy, koh, greg, and i helped out as much as we could and boy there was so much food. the best part was of course the sharings and the singing. koh, ming, eugene, tin, uncle james and auntie aimee shared stuff about joe. joe himself spoke. then there was a slideshow. and there were always song performances! cheesy and chisara sang SO WELL! seriously..professional voices..one of the best voices ive ever heard so far. then eugene sang while tin and his friends played drums and guitars..then gen and gloria sang too..haha..i was supposed to sing with them but i had to fix the laptop up for joseph's item after.
we made him dress up as aladdin (pink scarf, pink top, big hoop earring) and greg dressed up as jasmine to sing a whole new world..hehe..then after he sang some jay chou song, and grow old with you.
made me miss jonjon sooo much!!!!! ahhh!! i have the video of him singing for my parents that night..sigh* and thats a very nice song too..!! JONJON where are u?!?!

been so busy this past week..pray next week will be better. and i want to go home.

2006-03-19T13:57:00.000+08:00

mm chermaine's saying that i dont update anymore. sorry! been quite busy the past week.

i got my car! its a 1991 misubitshi lancer. engine's not too bad and though its a bit run down, everything else is working alright. pray that it'll stay that way! will clean it up and take pictures of it sometime :P

school work and kitchen work has been alright. school work's increasing so a lot more readings and revising to do.

i think im going to settle down in new life city church for now. feel that i should stay and get involved with the cell groups too. have joined evan's cell group (evan is jamey's friend) with 2 other new guys as well. quite cool to start something new and see where God will take me.

please continue to pray for my family..one family in 3 different countries..communication can breakdown pretty easily. thank God for holding us together so far! hope you guys are doing well too! =) wonder how the university applications are coming for the alevel people?? quite excited to come back and see how the NS guys are coping..hehe and i hope the pple in uni and working men and women are well too =) miss you guys lots.

2006-03-14T15:54:00.000+08:00

im going to beat myself up for forgetting this one very important thing a week ago.. AHH!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ESTHERRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-12T15:07:00.000+08:00

ahh!! busy busy week. been trying to get units sorted out and paid work has been picking up too. getting more shifts..good and bad in a way! $14 an hour on weekdays and $23 on weekends is really good money..thus been trying to balance school work and paid work.

happy belated birthdays to alvin, anand, nihar, xiaojun, and jonathan. =)

im exercising more too! hehe.. have to lose weight!! went for a weights class the other day and realised that it is not good for me after 10 minutes of being in there. literally back breaking. so sticking to the cardio stuff first :S

pastor in church spoke of unity in churches (which led to the elder board coming in front of the church and hugging each other) and agreement in prayer. i think this is why prayer in groups and getting others to pray for one thing is so important. not that its any more powerful or it will work better (in my opinion at least? i think we spoke about this in cg..correct me if im wrong) .. but it is the support and the "one-ness" of prayer. and its no use praying together for a particular thing when the group doesnt agree on that issue so there is hesitation and uncertainty (or maybe even lack of faith??) while praying.

was talking to genevieve after service (evan's girlfriend..and evan is jamey's good friend!) about me joining cell and her wanting to talk to me one on one. she said that she never really thought of following up on me and finding out more because she always focused on the ones who look lost..didnt "bother" much about me because i looked fine and stable (but in actual fact im crumbling away bit by bit, getting drained and not filled up)..and she also said that i look like someone with support (as in i have people praying for me)..but God prompted her to talk to me and she didnt know why but she did anyway. and i gave her a little bit of background about my spiritual life now and i am very very glad that there is someone who cares and its like God bringing someone into my life to support me and pray for me. (and this is the point where i got emo again and started crying) So we are meeting up for coffee on tuesday and maybe this is a start to something new here =)

and it really does show when one has spiritual support and prayer! so continue to pray for each other and be loving and supportive..! thank you guys who constantly email me and talk to me on msn..and on the phone too =) it really means so very much to me.

2006-03-05T19:30:00.000+08:00

Looking across the bay
Wind blowing in my face
Waters clapping against the rocks
The laughter of children
The scatter of families having a picnic

Looking up at the sky
Wind still blowing in my face
Waters splashing against the shore
No laughter within
The scatter of thoughts weighing me down

Looking across the vast green
Wind seems to get stronger
As I burst out into a run on the grass
Feeling as free as a horse in the wild

Finally I stopped
And like a sudden storm
A mix of fatigue and sadness
I burst into tears
I sat down and prayed
Looking past the clouds
Wind carrying my words
I prayed that God would hear my cry

Looking down from heaven He smiled
Wind embraced a broken heart
Peace flowed through and hushed my sobs
He heard me sing
Lord, all I need is You

2006-03-02T12:03:00.000+08:00

firstly, congrats to all who did well for the alevels and olevels =) happy to hear that so many of you did as expected or even better!

work was fun..haha..i got to learn everything i needed to on that day and was kind of tired. it was HOT in there too! gosh..~ but i didnt break anything or set anything on fire =P the plates are SO HEAVY and i realised that most of the college people are SLOBS when it comes to eating and keeping their food on their plates..working again tonight and tomorrow night. $$!

anyway..been feeling a little down lately..(yes again!) more of lost. we have a phrase in the cg called "THE plan" and i thought that i had it all figured out too. haha..like how paul has his entire life mapped out in front of him =P the path was pretty straightforward to me..do masters in physio after this degree majoring in sports rehabilitation. but how now? over the holidays, found out about my back problem and there was the fear of not being able to fulfil this "plan" and even have to change courses. and that fear has indeed come true. went for one of my units called health and fitness. it required running and weight training. that i obviously cant do. talked to my physiotherapist about this and he said i cant do it too. talked to my faculty advisor and he told me to reconsider my "plan" cause most physiotherapist have occupational back problems after some time and if i start off with a weak back, i probably wont last very long in that field.

so.. basically i have to find something else to do in life. seems to be God telling me something too...like hey look, is your "plan" my plan? something i learnt about choosing units now as well..i used to ask for advice from people about an issue..and already have the answer at the back of my mind and just asking to justify my cause. and when the advice contradicts me, i find an excuse to dismiss it. with this weakness of mine known to me, im trying and praying really hard that i keep an open mind and listen to what my advisors, my parents and most importantly ..God has to say about this. it's hard to focus when all of a sudden im quite lost and unsure about the future. what do i do? will i do what i like? and being the oh-so-competitive person i am, i dont like to lose out and want to make the best out of time and not waste any of it on unnecessary stuff..(note to self: this is another issue i need to sort out..!)

this song came into my head..its sometimes so easy to just sing it and yes i believe in it and know its true..but when it comes to really applying it and trusting God, our human nature just tends to have that "backup plan" just in case... Lord, i want to completely trust in You and not worry about the future because You are holding my hand..! and as i learnt from Joshua in the OT, You will go ahead of me in times of trouble or danger and will stay there till im through. that alone is comforting =) and i recognise that You alone are God, all sovereign, loving, and mighty!

I don't know about tomorrow,
I just live from day to day;
I don't borrow from its sunshine,
For its sky may turn to gray;
I don't worry o'er the future
For I know what Jesus said,
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand;
But I know who holds tomorrow,
And I know who holds my hand.

Every step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb;
Every burden's getting lighter,
Every cloud is silver lined.
There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eye;
At the ending of the rainbow,
Where the mountains touch the sky.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand;
But I know who holds tomorrow,
And I know who holds my hand.

I don't know about tomorrow,
It may bring me poverty;
But the one who feeds the sparrow
Is the one who stands by me;
And the path that be my portion,
May be thru the flame or flood,
But His presence goes before me,
And I'm covered with His blood.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand;
But I know who holds tomorrow,
And I know who holds my hand.

2006-02-28T17:22:00.000+08:00

meh~ sniff*